I know where beauty lives

And it shouldn't be so hard to find it.
[for so many years in my life it was always there for me.]

Need something bigger to distract myself of this useless feelings.
The real problem is that I wanna change some little things in a world and make the world a little thing. That's it. It could be a solution, but it's not yet. And I don't know if I'm able to do so. Only know that I'm tired. Very tired.